The Hate You Give review

This was written two years ago but I didn't post it. I just got out of the cinema after watching The Hate You Give and at first I thought 'gosh this is another movie that stereotypes black people and mocks black people. To my surprise though, it was a very real life from the eyes of a black girl. I think it was based on a true story because it felt so real. I literally felt like I was in the movie. I might actually watch it again because I missed a lot of it. I think I fell asleep in between as I do watching a lot of movies. I definitely remember how touching it was and how emotional it was. I shed a few tears because of how much injustice towards black people was shown.

People think we exaggerate when we talk about how black people being treated more unfairly than other races but this movie proves that we're not wrong. I felt disgusted to see how easily a young black guy can be shot by a police officer just because they 'think' he's holding a gun. The most ironic and sad part about it is that the guy rhe police man shot wasn't carrying a gun in his hand. It was actually a hairbrush! But obviously he assumed it was a gun.

The sad reality of life is there are always gonna be racist people in this world,whether we like it or not. Its the way we deal with it that really matters. Some people are just racist for bo reason. In fact most people are racist without understanding the reason why. It makes me so sick but sadly its the world we live in.

I think we need to keep fighting for equality like the girl in the movie did even if it feels like it's not making any difference. One day it will make a difference.

How I'm feeling right now

I just decided to pour out my heart about what I'm going through right now when it comes to men and being in a relationship because one I need to vent and two I feel it might help someone.

I've always felt like I needed a man or needed to be in a relationship to feel whole. I don't know why but ever since I was 18 I felt the need to always be with someone. Maybe it's just something everyone that age goes through. 

Over the years I've really learnt to be content with being single because to be able to love someone genuinely I need to learn to love myself and I need to be happy with being with my friends and family. I've been single for over a year now and I've never been happier. I'm not gonna lie it's been really difficult sometimes because sometimes you just want someone to talk to other than your family or friends but I've been learning to talk to God instead.

I've struggled to love myself for a long time. I'm still on the process of learning to love myself so I feel I'm not ready to be in a relationship yet. Guys, I've been through so much with men and 'boys'. I say boys because they think their men but they're not because they are very childish. Literally I've been through the most when it comes to relationships. I'm always getting hurt in the worst ways possible that I always said after the breakup that I didn't want to be in a relationship anymore but I end up falling for a guy.

I'm learning to be happy being single and honestly I've never felt more happier than I am now. Maybe it's the fact of not having to worry about another human being more than I already do. I have my family to worry about so I don't need to add another person to it. Another thing I'm forgetting is that I'm still very young. I'm 24 which is I think is too young to be thinking about marriage. I got to a point recently where I felt really down and depressed because I was seeing some of my friends in serious relationships, getting engaged or getting married. I felt like I was missing out and it got me thinking deeper that there was something wrong with me and that's why I can't attract a good guy.

I just want a man who'll realise my worth and love me so much and respect me. To be treated like a queen, that's what I want. Is it too much to ask for? I don't think so! Until I meet that man who's going to meet all my expectations I'm going to stay single. I can't keep getting my heart broken because when I really like a guy I can't help but show it. I tend to fall for a guy deeply when I do. I've promised myself to stop falling easily for guys and to stop trusting them because men can really lie when they want something from you. Some men are serious trash and don't deserve my time or attention.