Putting my emotions out there

Hey guys so this is my first proper blog. By that I mean not educational, its going to be very personal so if you don't like that then this isn't the place for you but if you do please keep reading.

I've actually been thinking about starting a blog for a long time but I just haven't had the courage to actually do it. I love sharing my personal experiences and emotions with strangers on the internet. You're thinking 'how strange!' Yes it sounds strange but I love it. It's like therapy for me. So today I want to tell you all reading about my feelings about the guy I really like, I mean I never really talk about guys with strangers but I'm going to because I feel someone will get something out of it. Who knows? Maybe you're going through the same thing and this might help you.

Well, I'm not gonna actually mention his name but I really like him and he goes to my university in the same course but in the year below, so his second year. Now I'm very aware that this does narrow it down a lot as to who it actually is so I might not say more than that. However, I've known him for a while now, almost a year and as I've gotten to know him I realised that I developed these strange strong feelings towards him and I couldn't understand why. I couldn't understand why because we're friends, getting quite close as friends as well so I didn't think I fancied him but I started realising I did and it felt weird. Every time I saw him and he smiled at me it was like I was melting into the ground and I got butterflies. Really?! I hardly feel that way towards a guy so it must have been special.

I tried not to think about it and forget about it but those feelings kept getting stronger and stronger as we met up more. We met up in a group of friends but every time me and him were talking it felt as though it was just the two of us. Is that weird or do you know what I mean by that? Basically where I'm at now is getting to know him more and getting to the point where I know if he feels the same way and finally telling him. I'm scared because I've been in quite a few situations in the past where I thought I really liked a guy and wanted to be with and he felt the same way and I'd tell him but it turned out he never felt the same way and it's been so awkward since then. That's why I've promised myself not to make the same mistakes again. I'm gonna take my time, not rush and make sure that I know he feels the same way before I make a move or better still, he might make a move. Thus saving me from embarrassment and our friendship being ruined.

Thank you for reading this blog post and I hope you enjoyed reading it.

Love,

Roberta